hey everyone

i'm really excited. i was talking to knockeddown and she agreed to an artistry/ photo shoot. we haven't set a date yet, but i'm hoping that everything will go smoothly.

the plan is to start out with some photo taking then move into body painting. there might be more or other things that might be done. nothing bad or sexual (dirty perverts lol jk). i have permission from knockeddown to post the work.

this may turn out to be a new past time or work for me.

i'll see how everything goes first. i may actually want more models for this. only if it goes to plan.

fun times.

hey y'all.

Slyshean here, been awhile since my last journal. any ways just here to tell you that i have finally got a new laptop. i'm so happy.

it is now 2:30am. for the past week i haven't gotten any sleep. don't really care. (insomnia), fun thing to have. ok so.

To those of you who might or might not know me. My name is Jesse Brett. I'm 18 years of age. I live a easy yet simple life. Hmm easy isn't really a great word. I should really say it's a life that most people would be great full to have. I mean I have everything I could want. Yet I'm still not happy.

If anyone that reads this is thinking "Hmm this sounds like a normal kid with no problems" then go fuck yourself. I really don't give a flying fuck.

In my life I have met the most loving, caring and sweetest people you would ever meet. I don't mean to be mean but I'm starting to get extremely bored out of my pathetic little mind. YES YES I know we all get bored every day.

To say the least there has been one person in my entire life that has been popping in my mind every FUCKING day since I met her. Her name is Savannah. I call her my Senpai. I don't care if I spelt that wrong. She's is one of those people that you can never turn your back on. Unless you want to be kicked in the bloody groin for doing so. Getting off topic, so as I was typing. My Senpai helped me in most, if not all, of my problems. I miss her but seem to never have any chance of actually expressing it. She may say that she knows that I love her but I don't really understand were I am in her picture. If she is reading this then please don't take this as a "obsessed friend who wants any thing".

Any ways. Another reason why I'm typing this is because I want to be alone. Even though I fear being alone. I really want to get my thoughts together.

If anyone is thinking of coming up to me or commenting that they have gone through the same thing. Then please don't. Also if anyone is going to tease or torment me about this then just try it and you'll find yourself in a puddle of your own fucking blood. Looking at me with your heart in my hand stabbing at it like a pissed off golfer who just boggied the last hole of the season. As well as "YOU" feebly attempting to get your intestines back into you while I stick acid down your throat.

I don't care if this may seem like a desperate cry for help. I just want to let people know what the hell I'm thinking and feeling.

To end things off. Leave me alone or I'll tear your fucking head off and make you eat your piece of shit body.

No offense, but ...
People are getting too fake on me . They only want posts, comments, or to see how many friends they can get .So let's see who will actually repost this. This is a test to see who's paying attention. This is a test to see how many people in my friends list actually pay attention to me. Copy and repost in your own bulletin. Lets see who the true friends are and I think I know who you are... Repost this if you are a friend...Don't reply... just copy and paste this in a new bulletin as "Fake Friends'

OK recently i went for a walk. no excitement there, but during the walk i came across an anime shop. it has everything you need for cosplay conventions or just that certain accessory you want from your favorite anime show. i couldn't believe my eyes. even though i'm new to the whole anime world i was impressed.

when i was talking to the guy who runs the shop. he said that i could help him with the english language. so i figured why not help even more. we got into a conversation about my promoting his shop (since he is in a corner of a building).

so since he has to manage the shop. i told him that since i know some people that enjoy anime and going to conventions. That i would ask if they needed anything that they couldn't make.

so if you need a certain item from an anime. You could just ask me, go to the shop or check the store on facebook (Goody Bear) to get the items.

You do how ever have to wait for certain items to come in. if you are going to an anime convention then you have to let him know about 2 months in advance.

if you have any questions. don't hesitate to ask me or the store owner (David Yuan).